A tribute to Janet Kanini Ikua

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When my father dropped me at Precious Blood Riruta on my first day in Form 1 in 1993, I did not know that my life would be interwoven with your life. From the House- Ruwenzori, from the room and the decker bed. Who would have known that I would have shared the same room and bed space for 3 years!

Janet Kanini Ikua then known as Muiva, was a charming room mate and decker mate. I think she was created on the day when smiles were being dished and a light spirit was being released. I remember Janet mostly through singing and humming her way through the day- at least most of the days. It was just refreshing to watch her. As a Form One, there is a lot of fear and trepidation as you face an unknown future with totally new people. I remember I was constantly afraid, timid and not sure of myself, but Janet my roommate together with the other roommates ensured that I settled in well.

I could not make my bed properly and she would tuck the bed for me, the PB style with the mitered corners. I came from games and somehow was not able to clean my feet well and my crisp clean sheets were soiled with red earth soil and she empathized with my stress. I would forget to get my water for bathing and sometimes I would find it graciously fetched for me. Life as a Form One was more bearable and enjoyable, she would wake me up if i tended to oversleep and just fun and a joy to be around with.

Janet was an interesting person. She possessed serenity and mischief in equal measure. She could gaze out of our room window for long on Sunday afternoons when a compulsory nap was mandated by the school. I wondered what she thought about but being a sweet soul, I am sure she mused about family-especially her family.

Janet was talented in the Arts, yes she was a bright girl academically, all rounded socially but Music and Drama were her love loves. She was the school dancer! My roommate was the school Drama and Music Festivals Lead dancer. During those long days of practice, she would be exhausted and worn out and so I chose to minister to her and fetch water and ensure she was not bothered by things i could do, even washing clothes. Janet was kind, it was a joy to serve her.

When Janet left PB in 1995, I was sad, I lost a friend…our phrase was “If we do not meet on earth, make sure we meet in heaven”. For me Janet kept in touch even though the difficulty then was lack of such social media as we have today. A few months after she left, she wrote me a long 5- page letter. I do not remember much of what she wrote, all I know is that she updated me on what she was up to especially the acting and being well. I was thrilled that she considered me significant to pen such a letter to.

After that her rise was meteoric, on TV and more TV and more TV, her marriage, her father’s demise, her children and so I just told people my decker-mate is Janet. That is how I kept tabs with her. Then- Janet disappeared and when she re- emereged it was the Deep Venous Thrombosis Diagnosis.

Of course it has been a difficult journey. Janet has suffered in the body, her soul has been in anguish but I am happy to report that I met Janet about a year ago. I bumped into her at a dental x-ray clinic on Old Mutual Building. It was a short 10 minute meeting, I introduced her to my husband, did a little chit chat and exchanged contacts.

That was the last time. I saw her. Then the drama that has unfolded in the last few months unfolded. Janet finished her race in the Lord. There is no greater joy for me to know that Janet will meet me when I arrive in heaven.Janet the beautiful soul on earth not in the presence of our saviour. the one who carried her through the pain of Chemo, held her hand in the throes of fear. Halleluyah! What a saviour!

Janet leaves behind a husband and two beautiful children, her mother and her sisters together with their families. The story of Janet must be written for all to read. To inspire those suffering, to shine the Light of Jesus in the darkest days. May the family and friends be comforted to know that their loved one has run her race and finished it-well. God who has been with them continues to be a friend and a helper in time of need. I will think about you for a long long time.

In the meantime, Fare Thee Well Janne, you are at the best place any of us can be- Resting from your labours.

May the Name of the Lord Jesus Be Praised

Your Friend

Caroline Chimoyi- Kasaya

 

Let it rain…

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The rain from heaven has finally arrived in my little corner of the world. Hurray! Hurray! Hip Hip Hurray! This has been one very long dry spell as I have experienced the sun in all her glory.

I must spare a thought for my fellow countrymen and women who are suffering because of the drought that continues to ravage various parts of Kenya. I am perfectly aware that this is hard and difficult for many many people. May the rain bring relief on our parched land.

The rain brings relief to every person around as it brings growth and new life. I am happy that the rain is back because of one major commodity- water.

The water issues in Nairobi have been a thorn in many households. I considered changing houses, to estates, to cities just incase my woes with water would end. First came the ominous announcement in January that the commodity will remain rare till after March, next came the laughing water vendors praying that the rains never come so that they can make money, then came the residential flat wars of the survival for the fittest in view of this precious commodity. This is a story for another day…

It had been 4 long months since the threat became a reality and I thank God that the rains are here.

The dust of the earth has been a constant reminder of our mortality as I walked the dusty Kasarani streets. No matter how smart or well oiled one was, the dust was a permanent feature on shoes, clothes and the house. The rain washes all these away and brings freshness and peace in a waterless concrete jungle that we have lived in. Rain brings with it spring and spring is a season of new life, birth and a sign of our immortality.

Thank you Heavenly Father for the blessing of rain. Thank you for answering our prayers. Tomorrow I will walk in the early morning air with my daughter breathing in fresh air…after the drought bring on the rain Lord! Let it rain, Let it rain, Let it rain. In Jesus Name. Amen

Caroline

A Stay at Home Mom for the last 10 years. Here are my 10 reasons..

Thank you for this piece. This is a journey with the Lord and the family He has given me

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Should I be a stay home parent or work outside home?

The decision to become a stay home mom was not a one-day decision for me.

It was an idea that grew with me as a result of my childhood experience of being raised by busy and overwhelmed parents. They constantly struggled with having to split their time between their business and us.

I decided that when I grew up I would be available to the ones I care about most – my children and husband

Today, I have been stay home mum for the last 10 years and I still love it

Here are my reasons:

  1. My children are below 15 years of age. They are very young and still need a lot of parental support and guidance. I chose to have them.
  2. My children are therefore my responsibility. I want to have to minimize regrets in the future.

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HOW YOU HURT YOUR FAMILY

I have been in this situation for some time and i decided to change after a particularly hard year last year. I am so glad my family is reconnected. Thanks Jacqueline for this.

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Over time, I have appreciated the fact that your family could be the most available and dependable people, yet it could be one of the most easily abused pillar(s) of society.

Hurting your family is equivalent to abuse because this results from a lack of understanding as to why God gifted us with such lovely and dependable people. How you handle them could be a  source of a blessing or a curse.

How do you handle yours?

This is how you hurt them knowingly or unknowingly;

  • You don’t prioritize them at all!

You imagine that they understand that you are always busy and that they don’t feel bad when you don’t spare time for them.

  • You think they don’t need you!

I mean, you have grown up with them! Like, 20 years+. Wasn’t that like enough time, you ask, No it wasn’t! Time with family is never enough!

  • You don’t…

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To plunge or not? That is the question

Finding God in the Stay at Home mode

I am an avid reader of blogs and articles by Christian womstay-at-home-mom.jpgen and mothers on the topic of Stay at Home (SAH). I doubt that there is a silver bullet when it comes to tackling  this scenario especially when you are in the throes of it either as one about to plunge in, one who has plunged in or one who is about to plunge out.

Like any decision you must take, as  a Christian, one must pray for peace in the matter. A peace that surpasses all understanding –I must add (Philippians 4:7). This is because it is going to be a nerve wracking scenario to be in whichever way you chose. When praying as a woman one must have before them their roles in society but also their hopes and dreams in tow. God created women different from men and with specific roles irrespective of whether you are SAH, working in and out of the house mom or whatever else you are at now. Yet God not only put in you stuff (read gifts, abilities, talents and ideas) for only your kids and family, He also put in a lot else for the community and your sphere of influence.

These are tough decisions with pros and cons for each scenario, there are losses and gains yet one needs to consider all these in a healthy balance and in view of God’s will for them at the time. This calls for trust in the Lord and less focus on your very brilliant ideas-just plain trusting even in the midst of your most genius idea (Proverbs 3:5-6).

As a SAH for the last 7 months, there have been surprising things that I have come across, some normal everyday doldrums and some downright annoying things. All these keep the days busy, fun, tiring, disappointing, overwhelming, fresh and pretty much normal. But everyday, I must remember that whether I am SAH or not, God will require of me to give an account of what I did with my life and that life for now is SAH.

Prayer: Lord Help my days in this amazing season count. In Jesus Name. Amen

Caroline

Praying and Fasting

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Have you ever got to a point in your life when this statement by Jesus rang true? So He said to them, “This kind can come out by nothing but prayer and fasting”. Mark 9:29.

Jesus who had earlier prayed and spent time alone before sending the disciples to a ready harvest was now going to teach them a new lesson. That victories over evil are not a walk in the park.

I have earlier on in my Christian walk often wondered why God allows difficult moments to follow us, interrupt our cosy lives…why is the highway to heaven more like a difficult ride on some of our rural roads?

Why must it be a fight to the death?

Well if we call ourselves followers of Jesus, we cannot choose the curriculum, but we can choose our attitude in facing every test or query. You will note with joy that at the beginning of the ministry, we meet Jesus leaving the Jordan after cousin John has baptized Him and was led (not His will) by the Spirit in to the desert to be tempted by the devil. He went there armed with prayer and fasting. You can read Luke 4:1-2.

Imagine knowing what kind of death you will die, how, by whose hand, and the number of days to the very day. Yet Jesus’ death was not ordinary, it was to achieve eternal salvation for ALL mankind. The weight was heavy. Now imagine in addition to that your arch enemy, a rebel you created and know too well, will be there to try and dissuade you because of the humanity (read weakness of body/flesh) you have adorned.

Prayer aligns our will to God…the body will kick and fight but it MUST comply…because the cause is great and the battle must be fought. Fasting subdues the body so that it does not speak above the voice of God. Fasting emboldens us against temptation. When we like Jesus our forerunner in Matthew 4:10-11 said to Satan “Away from me, Satan!” and we remind him what God says in His word…by reading it of course; then in our hour of great trouble, the angels will be sent by the Father to attend to us.

There are few things that God asks us to try Him and see…Prayer and fasting is one of them. Try Him and see, do not manipulate, Listen Listen, Be Alert, Perceive, for God speaks and acts!

Fast and Pray Today…am sure there is something heavy or light bothering you

 

 

 

 

Lazarus Come Forth

I ended the year 2016 on a good note-tired but grateful to God. I was looking forward to a quiet year to enjoy restfully what God has given.

My 2017 dream of a quiet year has been anything but normal, peaceful and organized. I have encountered several difficult moments in my life and of people I love or just know that have taken the wind from my lungs and in my wings. I have just let go to be sheltered by the Lord because I  cannot on my own.

The situations that I have encountered have made me long for Jesus to speak the words… Lazarus come forth! To undo the work of sin in us and in creation.  To remove shame and bring honour. To restore the broken walls and help the participants to rebuild them.  I need the resurrection power and nothing less for the situations I have seen this year.

I know some Lazarus’s in my life and the situations I have seen will not return to us because death has happened… But even then there is hope for a new beginning of those that are left.  I would like to be part of that good work as His wills.

Then there are those who I know must slowly pick up and rebuild their lives,  where disease and the evil one had claimed a stake but because of community, they are saved.

Then there are those that am telling God,  this situation is messy,  decayed it is potentially dead.  But you are the Lord of the resurrection… Jesus the mighty restorer… You can chart a new way or make all things new.

So I  wait,  I pray, I cry,  I pout,  I think,  I rely on the Lord who beat sin 10-nil. To help me wait and wait well.

In the meantime be blessed by the lyrics of this song by Elevation Worship  “Raised to Life”. http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/elevationworship/raisedtolife.html

Lord I wait and please help me

Fearfully and Wonderfully made

Caroline Kasaya

How I Need You

Lord I come,  I confess,  bowing here,  I find my rest.  Without you,  I fall apart,  you are the one that guides my heart. Chris Tomlin to me is the new generation (millenials) Michael W Smith.  These lyrics of this modern day classic ” I need you” have an effect on my heart like a piercing of a sword.

The words of this song open the floodgates of my tears.  I am constantly transported into the awareness of the presence of God no matter where I  am. So this is a tricky song to listen to while in public transport because I will bawl like a frustrated toddler.

Do we need the Lord Jesus Christ?  Or have we turned the other way and we want him to need us?  The temptation to be all sufficient in self is a battle that I fight daily with my flesh.  To be in full control of all and everything about me. Jesus told Chris Tomlin to write this song to remind you and I that he holds all things together and without him we will fall apart.

I cry because I wrestle to remain under his direction and ways.  I wrestle with the notion to be like God… A futile attempt from mini-me.

So I sing… “Lord I need you oooh I need you,  every hour I need you,  my one defence,  my righteousness oh God how I need you”.

I sing as a prayer that God will still my anxious thoughts and remind me daily that without Him I fall apart.  Even my best efforts and achievements must be anchored deeply in my need for God.

Dear Lord keep my focus on you in the right balance.  I need you,  more than I know or sing.

Fearfully and wonderfully made

Mrs. Caroline Kasaya

 

In His Time

 

One of my all time favourite songs is the Maranatha Album’s “In His Time”. The tune is easy and soulful. The words are hauntingly sweet. The tempo is designed to help you gulp in every word.  The song is a timeless classic that I think should be our ringtone to remind us to wait upon God when the going gets tough-because it will.

I have preached and trained many times in many Kenyan Universities and colleges on the importance of time management. Many a time the focus has been on how to manage time and to be a good steward. I do not in any way belittle this view of things,  but as time rolls on and I grow less younger, I have found one of the greatest time wasters.

It is the forever relentless nature of humans and even humans going to heaven to spend this precious commodity acting God.

This we do by doing things not in His time but out of it.  We worry,  yet God tells us worry not,  we plan like there is no God – by this I mean having no room for the “what ifs”of life. Therefore (and God forbid)  when the “what ifs”happens,  then we relapse into worry and playing God.

My favourite proverb found in the Bible goes something like “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and he shall direct your paths”.

We have no issue with God,  we may have no issue with trust too but for us to enjoy the benefits of Him directing our paths,  we must Trust His Timing. Then and only then will He make ALL things beautiful for His glory.

I wish you a good day

Fearfully and Wonderfully made

Caroline