Life can kick you really hard in the stomach leaving you out of breathe. It is almost a month now since we lost a dear friend in a road accident. It has taken me over 3 weeks to actually see, believe and feel that our 29 year old, friend had crossed over to eternity.My husband and I were their best couple in a colorful wedding in November 2015.
I remember the frantic call from the wife at 11.30pm on that fateful Tuesday 9th of February 2016. I was in bed and for some reason, I decided to leave the phone on (something I had not done for quite sometime) and my husband noted the brilliance in the room as the wife made the call.
I quickly jumped out of bed, moving via adrenaline, my usually unperturbed and a little slow to react husband was still taking in the news at the other end of the line that ” My husband has not arrived to his destination, the phone is ringing and no one has picked it, the transport company he traveled by is not keen to release any information”.
We picked our warm clothes, I called the supervisor to the husband and started the long journey that is still on 3 weeks later. The long and short of it is that the 84 day husband died and we were thrown into panic and planning for a funeral.
Why does God allow life to kick us so hard? Or simply why does life hurt? When you think you have it and want to hold onto it tightly, like soap, it slips out of your hand and you have to try and follow it to catch up with where you were. David in Psalm 22 paints an interesting scenario when he cries out in verse 1-2 ” My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish? My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, but I find no rest”.
Jesus has been at the same position if not at a more harder place than I have been in the last 3 weeks. In these Psalm, David asks the human question “Why” three times. This is a heavy word especially when you are crying and you are asking The Sovereign God. Why Lord? Why take a young man? Why leave a young widow? Why wound us this much? Why? Why? Why?
Yet Jesus, God himself cried, asked the same question, there was silence from heaven and darkness covered the earth for 3 hours Luke 23:44-45 “for the sun stopped shining”.
Things are tough, life will never be the same again but the sun will shine again, on a new me on a new us as a couple, on a new life the young widow has to live and indeed all who loved him, his family and friends. But like resurrection David in Psalm 22:24 says, “For he has not despised or scorned the suffering of the afflicted one (Emphasis mine here: ‘of the one kicked hard in the stomach’) he has not hidden his face from him but has listened to his cry for help.
The devil and death kicked Jesus HARD on Good Friday but come Easter Sunday, Jesus dealt them a deathly blow. God heard His Son’s cry and though He seemed silent, he was holding on for Easter Sunday, the final blow on these enemies of men and women across the globe.
I thank God for the promise of resurrection for our young friend and a life of hope and peace to his widow, family and friends. For we all need that assurance.
Lord I do not understand the loss and the stress I have had in the past 3 weeks. I do not know why this loss and death happened. But I know how I feel. I feel robbed, I feel played and I feel helpless at times. If I am feeling this way, there are others whose same loss means much more; especially the young widow and his immediate family. Father help me during this time to find you steadfast and sure for you are. Let my faith in you kick in and not give up. Help me to be strong in your power.In Jesus Name. Amen